The black Volvo hums softly as it weaves out of Manhattan’s grid and onto the long arteries leading north.
Sunlight slants low across the windshield, gilding the street signs.
The city begins to fall away behind them - replaced by stretches of suburban calm and skeletal trees lining the highway.
Erica checks the rearview mirror, then glances at Merjem in the passenger seat to her right.
The girl stares straight ahead, her hands in her lap, jaw tight.
So much fear she isn’t letting show.
Legally, she's free.
An adult.
But emotionally, she's still a teenager forced to make choices grown adults would hesitate over.
“Where are we going?” Merjem asks.
Her voice is soft.
Surprisingly steady.
Erica watches her for a moment.
She’s holding herself like glass – delicate, brittle, just barely holding together.
So Erica keeps it simple, solid, and true.
“I’ve got two options lined up for you,” she says. “One’s a care home in Scarsdale. Elderly residents, quiet environment. The other’s a horse ranch outside of Bedford. Big skies, early mornings, real work. No one’s going to be looking for you in either place.”
She pauses.
Then adds, “You’d have your own room. Meals. Some responsibilities. Let’s call it an internship.”
Merjem turns her head slowly. “You trust the people there?”
“Absolutely,” Erica says simply.
And for a beat, the silence in the car feels almost like peace.
In the hush of the car, broken only by the rhythmic thrum of the road, Merjem stares out the window at the fading light and passing trees.
Her thoughts twist like threads she can’t quite hold.
“I’m not sure if I’m good with old people,” she says eventually, voice quiet but clear. “But… I like horses. I can’t ride, but they have those big, beautiful eyes.”
Erica smiles slightly, her eyes flicking from the road to the girl beside her.
Beautiful big eyes. Just like yours, she thinks, but doesn’t say.
“So, Ironwood Pastures it is,” she says. “You’ll like it there. The woman who runs it - Mrs. Henshaw - is as tough as saddle leather, but she’s got a big heart. Knows horses better than some people know their kids.”
Merjem nods, trying to hold on to everything Erica is saying - names, impressions, tone.
She feels like she’s stepping into a new language, a new world, and she doesn’t want to misstep.
She already knows her parents will see her as a disgrace.
A daughter gone rogue.
But right now, the only person she doesn’t want to disappoint is the one driving this car.
“You’ll be staying in her daughter’s old room,” Erica continues. “Sarah works at a DIY store in Bedford and has her own apartment. You’ll fit in. And you’ll learn a lot.”
“I never thought I’d become a cowgirl,” Merjem whispers, still watching the scenery blur past.
Erica chuckles softly. “Wrangler,” she corrects. “Cowboys work cattle. Wranglers care for horses.”
“Oh.”
Her smile is small but real - the first since she left the city. “Looks like I’ve got a lot to learn.”
Erica checks the mirror, signals right, and takes the next exit.
“We need to get you some things.”
Digging into her jacket pocket, fingers fumbling, Merjem pulls out a couple of crumpled bills and some coins.
She lays them on her palm like an offering.
“This is all I have,” she whispers, ashamed. “I can’t even pay for toothpaste.”
Erica glances at her, then back at the road.
“This one’s on me,” she says simply, but with an encouraging smile. “Call it my good turn to get you started.”
~~~
They pull into the parking lot of a quiet mall, where the air smells faintly of asphalt and fast food. Erica parks, kills the engine, and slides out of her seat.
“Come on,” she says. “Let’s go shopping.”
Inside the superstore, bright lights buzz above their heads as they roll a cart through the aisles.
Erica moves efficiently, scanning labels, checking sizes.
Bit by bit, the cart fills with her new life.
Toothbrush. Socks. A rain jacket.
Things no one should have to flee without.
Merjem tries to keep up, glancing at each item and silently calculating.
Her brow furrows a little deeper with every addition to the cart, but she doesn’t say anything.
Then they reach the electronics aisle.
“They’re not iPhones,” Erica says, gesturing to the display, “but they’ll keep you connected. Grab one.”
Merjem hesitates, her hand hovering near a budget-friendly Chinese model.
Before she picks it up, Erica places a hand gently over hers.
“One rule,” she says, voice low but firm. “Do not call home. Not now. Not for a while. I know it feels wrong. But don’t let guilt trick you.”
She holds Merjem’s gaze.
“They don’t feel bad about sending you to Afghanistan without your consent. Don’t feel bad about saving yourself.”
Merjem swallows and nods. “Yes, ma’am,” she says softly.
By the time they reach the checkout, the cart is full - two large sports bags’ worth of essentials, from shampoo to sports bras, lip balm to leather gloves.
At the self-checkout, Merjem stares, wide-eyed, as Erica swipes her card without blinking.
“You need something to wear,” Erica says, shoveling the items into the bags with practiced efficiency. “That’s just the way it is.”
~~~
