Re: Memoirs of Peter S aged 14 and 3/4 m/f+ (Part 2 added)
Posted: Tue May 07, 2019 5:50 am
Part three
Well I couldn’t tell you how long it took for the pizza to arrive, just like I couldn’t tell you what was said between my mom and dad, for following her arrival, following her standing in the study’s doorway, I made my excuses, made my way upstairs, made my way to the shower, to the very wet room I’d seen mom bound and gagged within, minutes earlier. It seemed strangely different to before, seemed to be almost taunting me, making my mind work overtime. My mind was still full of confusion, was still full of questions, was still full of uncertainty, for part of me still wanted it to all go away, still wanted it to be some kind of weird dream. But then another part of me kind of loved the whole idea, the idea of my mom being the hugely popular, the hugely sort after damsel in distress, part of me didn’t want my parents to call it a day, didn’t want them to stop what they were doing. Part of me wondered if I wanted to be involved in one way or another, part of me wondered if they’d let me. Even the warm water, normally so soothing, normally so rejuvenating, normally so relaxing did nothing to ease my troubled mind, did nothing to ease my mixed emotions, did nothing to ease my confusion. In a way it seemed to be hours since I walked through our front door, seemed to be hours since I caught my mom being photographed and videoed as she strained and struggled against the ropes binding her tightly. In a way it seemed like an eternity since she came to my room, in a way it seemed like an eternity since I left the study, in a way it seemed like somethings had changed forever.
But the evening had only just begun, it would be hours before bedtime, it would be hours before I could sleep on everything that had happened. In a way I wanted the time to fly past, wanted the time to bypass me completely. Yet in another way I wanted to know so much more, wanted to feel right before bedtime arrived, wanted to know just what I had to sleep on. It wasn’t long before my mom called up the stairs, wasn’t long before she asked me to come down and join them both in the kitchen, wasn’t long before pizza arrived, but if I hoped there’d be more talk, more explanations I was left disappointed. For instead of picking up where they’d both left off, from when my mom left my bedroom, from when I left the study, it was just the usual small talk, the usual how’s your day been, did you see this on the news, what did you do at school today. I guessed my mom and dad wanted to keep some kind of normality, wanted to show somethings hadn’t changed, that I was still their son, that meal times, were exactly that, wanted to show what I’d seen, what they do, had no effect on our daily lives. Yet that wasn’t what I wanted, I wanted to know so much more, wanted answers to my questions, wanted to understand my own feelings, wanted to know what would happen from then on.
For I’d had to wait, wait till after the pizzas were finished, till after we’d all eaten, I’d had to wait till after the small talk was over, I’d had to wait till my chores were completed, I’d had to wait until the dishes were washed before I could join my mom and dad in the living room, the very room where it had all started. It was with appreciation I approached the open door, my nerves seemed to be on the edge, my heart seemed to be pounding in my chest, my pulse seemed to be racing, my legs seemed to be made of lead, my breathing seemed to be short and sharp. It was with appreciation I walked in, walked in to find my mom, dressed in her usual tight fitting sports leggings and loose t-shirt, walked in to find my dad dressed in his usual jeans and t-shirt sat side by side on the sofa, walked into the same scene as I would every other night. Yet this wasn’t a usual night, things had changed, as all three of us knew well enough.
With her usual warm smile my mom asked me to sit down, with his usual let’s talk son my dad began, began once more by telling me how happy they are together, how much they love each other, how much they love me. They both told me they knew this had come as a shock to me, that it would no doubt take me a while to adapt, to accept what I’d walked in and seen, what I’d heard since then, what I’d looked at on the computer. They both told me it wasn’t weird, it wasn’t illegal, they both told how relieved they were, how relieved they were that finally I knew, knew before anyone told me. They both explained how they intended to continue with what they do, how they hoped I’d accept that, how they hoped I’d understand, how they’d rather not continue to do it in secret, how they hoped I’d agree to be involved in one way or another. They both told be how they’d seen the way I looked at my mom both in the living room, and the study, they both told me they knew it wasn’t an inappropriate look, that it wasn’t a look of inappropriate sexual pleasure, they both told me they knew it was a look that said how much I like my mom, liked other women bound, gagged and helpless. They both told be it was how they felt.
It was my dad that told me he’d been the same at my age, that he’d first realised he liked getting girls tied when playing childhood games, while playing cops and robbers, or cowboys and Indians. It was my dad that admitted he’d been confused about it for many years, that he hadn’t understood why he’d always wanted to get the neighbourhood girls bound and gagged. It was my dad that told me how he didn’t want me to feel that way, that he longed to ensure I didn’t waste time wondering if I was weird or morally wrong. It was my dad that told me plenty of others felt the same, that I’d seen the proof, seen it when looking at the website, that I’d seen the proof by the numbers that paid the monthly subscriptions, that paid for the yearly memebership. It was my dad that told me how in time he’d met the perfect woman, how he’d met my mom and fell in love, how they’d soon began to enjoy bondage both for fun and whether I liked to hear it or not, sexually as well. It was my dad that passed over the conversation, the so far one sided coversation, to my mom, to my mom so she could say what she wanted, say how she felt.
It was my mom that emphasised the fact they intended to continue with their bondage fun, that they didn’t want it to stop, that they intended to continue with the website, that she viewed it as her business, her way to bring an income into the house. It was my mom that told me she’d seen the look in my eyes when I saw her bound to the chair, that she’d seen the look in my eyes only the night before, the night before when I saw the actress bound and gagged on the tele. It was my mom that told me it was the same look she saw in my dads eyes whenever he had her helpless, when they’d played their games before the website ever came along, before they got married, before I came along, that she still sees in my dads eyes now. It was my mom that told me how it started, started for her, how it started in her childhood, how it started with her sister, my auntie Elizabeth. It was my mom who told me they would play silly games, that they would challenge each other, that they always enjoyed it, that they still do. It was my mom that admitted auntie Elizabeth still comes over, that many a time when I see her she’s been bound, been gagged, been photographed by my dad, had the images posted on the website. It was my mom that shocked me once more, shocked me by saying how auntie Elizabeth was involved, that she joined in, that dad even tied her. It was my mom that told me, how one day she was sure I’d want to tie a girl for myself, that she’d seen how I look at Emma, look at her when she comes over with her mom, Jackie. It was my mom that seemed to look into my mind and reach out for the truth, the truth behind how I felt, how much a wanted to bind and gag Emma, how much I fancied her. It was my mom that had the crystal ball, the crystal ball that saw into the future, that saw the fact I would indeed end up dating Emma.
In time the conversation drew to an end, soon enough it was over to me, was upto me to speak, to say how I felt, to admit how I felt. At first I thought it would be hard, would me impossible for me to be open and honest, would be me that failed to find the words, would be me that hid my emotions. But thankfully, in one way or another that wasn’t the case, it wasn’t as hard as I thought, wasn’t as nerve wracking as I expected. Yet, my mouth was dry, my heart pounded, in fact it had never stopped, my pulse raced, in fact that hadn’t stopped either. A glass of water took care of the dry mouth, but did nothing for my heart rate, did nothing for my pulse rate, yet finally I found my voice, finally I managed to engage my brain, finally I found the connection between them both. Slowly, at first, I began to speak, began to speak openly about how it felt to stumble in on my parents bondage game, stumble in on my parents secret, on how it felt to discover it was in fact my parents little business. Slowly, my words barely audible, I admitted not only to my mom, not only to my dad, but to myself, just how much I’d liked seeing my mom looking so helpless, how much I’d liked seeing her playing the role of a helpless damsel, like those in the movies and on TV. Slowly, with my words barely audible I admitted, how I liked the idea of seeing my auntie Elizabeth all tied up with my mom, how I liked the idea of seeing their friend Jackie all tied up with my mom, and most of all how I’d like to have Emma all tied up as well.
Yet, even as I admitted my feelings, as I admitted not only to my parents, but to myself how I felt, it seemed such an odd conversation to be having. It felt so weird to be telling them how I liked looking at my mom when she was bound and gagged, it felt so wrong to be so open, and yet it felt oh so right, it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders, it felt like some, if not all the confusion had begun to clear. I told them, after a short pause, a pause instigated when they acknowledged my admittance, when they both nodded their understanding, when they both accepted how hard it was for me to admit my feelings, when they both admitted how weird a conversation it was, when they admitted what a weird feeling it must be to say what I did, that I didn’t want them to stop. I told them how clear it was they enjoyed what they did, I told my mom how good she looked, how beautiful she was, I told her how clear it was that it made her happy, how clear it was that she enjoyed being the damsel in distress, how clear it was that she liked posing for the camera, how clear it was that she liked playing the part. I told my dad how clear it was he enjoyed seeing my mom like that, told him how clear it was that he liked binding and gagging my mom, told him how clear it was he enjoyed photographing and videoing her like that. I told them both how it would be wrong of me to stop that, I told them I’m no longer a little boy, I told them it was clear they liked sharing the images and videos, I told them that it was clear how popular my mom was, I told them it was clear how much they made doing such things.
I asked them to promise they’d no longer hide what they did, asked them to be honest with me in the future about what they did, I asked them if they’d been serious, serious about me being involved, I asked them in what way could I be involved, I asked them if they’d teach me how to bind my mom, asked them if they teach me how to gag my mom. I continued by asking if they’d teach me how to take the photographs, I asked them if they’d teach me how to take the videos, I asked them if they’d teach me how to do the editing of the photographs, of the videos. I asked them if they’d let me become a part of what they do, I asked them if that was even possible, I asked them if that was even acceptable, asked them if there’d be any limits set, asked if there was certain outfits I couldn’t see my mom wearing, asked if there was certain ties I couldn’t be involved in. I waited for their response, waited for their reply, waited with baited breath, waited to be sent to my room for suggesting such a thing.
I was relieved when that didn’t happen, I was relieved when they replied, when the acknowledged my statement, acknowledged how hard it must have been to say, acknowledged how grown up I’d acted, acknowledged how proud they were of me. I was relieved when they answered my questions. I was relieved when my mom thanked me for saying how beautiful she looked, I smiled at how she blushed while doing so. I was relieved when my mom told me that binding her, gagging her would be allowed, that I could learn how to do it, with my dads help. I was relieved when my mom told me it would be ok to do some of the photography, would be ok to do some of the videoing. I was relieved when my dad told me I could be involved in the editing, could be involved in deciding what images, what scenes made their way onto the website. I wasn’t surprised when told there would be limits, I wasn’t surprised when I was told some outfits would be out of bounds, that for decency and privacy certain sets would be private even from me. Wasn’t surprised when they told me some bindings would be out of bounds, would be unacceptable between me and my mom, between me and my auntie Elizabeth, if she even agreed to me being involved, would be unacceptable between me and any of the other women that help out with the site, if they even agreed to me being involved. They told me if I waited till Saturday, if I was patient and continued to show my maturity, then it could begin, begin for real.
So all I could do was wait, wait for the weekend, wait to find out what would happen, how it would begin, how I would get to bind and gag my mom, and sadly you’ll have to wait, wait for the next part of my memoirs to hear what happened............
Well I couldn’t tell you how long it took for the pizza to arrive, just like I couldn’t tell you what was said between my mom and dad, for following her arrival, following her standing in the study’s doorway, I made my excuses, made my way upstairs, made my way to the shower, to the very wet room I’d seen mom bound and gagged within, minutes earlier. It seemed strangely different to before, seemed to be almost taunting me, making my mind work overtime. My mind was still full of confusion, was still full of questions, was still full of uncertainty, for part of me still wanted it to all go away, still wanted it to be some kind of weird dream. But then another part of me kind of loved the whole idea, the idea of my mom being the hugely popular, the hugely sort after damsel in distress, part of me didn’t want my parents to call it a day, didn’t want them to stop what they were doing. Part of me wondered if I wanted to be involved in one way or another, part of me wondered if they’d let me. Even the warm water, normally so soothing, normally so rejuvenating, normally so relaxing did nothing to ease my troubled mind, did nothing to ease my mixed emotions, did nothing to ease my confusion. In a way it seemed to be hours since I walked through our front door, seemed to be hours since I caught my mom being photographed and videoed as she strained and struggled against the ropes binding her tightly. In a way it seemed like an eternity since she came to my room, in a way it seemed like an eternity since I left the study, in a way it seemed like somethings had changed forever.
But the evening had only just begun, it would be hours before bedtime, it would be hours before I could sleep on everything that had happened. In a way I wanted the time to fly past, wanted the time to bypass me completely. Yet in another way I wanted to know so much more, wanted to feel right before bedtime arrived, wanted to know just what I had to sleep on. It wasn’t long before my mom called up the stairs, wasn’t long before she asked me to come down and join them both in the kitchen, wasn’t long before pizza arrived, but if I hoped there’d be more talk, more explanations I was left disappointed. For instead of picking up where they’d both left off, from when my mom left my bedroom, from when I left the study, it was just the usual small talk, the usual how’s your day been, did you see this on the news, what did you do at school today. I guessed my mom and dad wanted to keep some kind of normality, wanted to show somethings hadn’t changed, that I was still their son, that meal times, were exactly that, wanted to show what I’d seen, what they do, had no effect on our daily lives. Yet that wasn’t what I wanted, I wanted to know so much more, wanted answers to my questions, wanted to understand my own feelings, wanted to know what would happen from then on.
For I’d had to wait, wait till after the pizzas were finished, till after we’d all eaten, I’d had to wait till after the small talk was over, I’d had to wait till my chores were completed, I’d had to wait until the dishes were washed before I could join my mom and dad in the living room, the very room where it had all started. It was with appreciation I approached the open door, my nerves seemed to be on the edge, my heart seemed to be pounding in my chest, my pulse seemed to be racing, my legs seemed to be made of lead, my breathing seemed to be short and sharp. It was with appreciation I walked in, walked in to find my mom, dressed in her usual tight fitting sports leggings and loose t-shirt, walked in to find my dad dressed in his usual jeans and t-shirt sat side by side on the sofa, walked into the same scene as I would every other night. Yet this wasn’t a usual night, things had changed, as all three of us knew well enough.
With her usual warm smile my mom asked me to sit down, with his usual let’s talk son my dad began, began once more by telling me how happy they are together, how much they love each other, how much they love me. They both told me they knew this had come as a shock to me, that it would no doubt take me a while to adapt, to accept what I’d walked in and seen, what I’d heard since then, what I’d looked at on the computer. They both told me it wasn’t weird, it wasn’t illegal, they both told how relieved they were, how relieved they were that finally I knew, knew before anyone told me. They both explained how they intended to continue with what they do, how they hoped I’d accept that, how they hoped I’d understand, how they’d rather not continue to do it in secret, how they hoped I’d agree to be involved in one way or another. They both told be how they’d seen the way I looked at my mom both in the living room, and the study, they both told me they knew it wasn’t an inappropriate look, that it wasn’t a look of inappropriate sexual pleasure, they both told me they knew it was a look that said how much I like my mom, liked other women bound, gagged and helpless. They both told be it was how they felt.
It was my dad that told me he’d been the same at my age, that he’d first realised he liked getting girls tied when playing childhood games, while playing cops and robbers, or cowboys and Indians. It was my dad that admitted he’d been confused about it for many years, that he hadn’t understood why he’d always wanted to get the neighbourhood girls bound and gagged. It was my dad that told me how he didn’t want me to feel that way, that he longed to ensure I didn’t waste time wondering if I was weird or morally wrong. It was my dad that told me plenty of others felt the same, that I’d seen the proof, seen it when looking at the website, that I’d seen the proof by the numbers that paid the monthly subscriptions, that paid for the yearly memebership. It was my dad that told me how in time he’d met the perfect woman, how he’d met my mom and fell in love, how they’d soon began to enjoy bondage both for fun and whether I liked to hear it or not, sexually as well. It was my dad that passed over the conversation, the so far one sided coversation, to my mom, to my mom so she could say what she wanted, say how she felt.
It was my mom that emphasised the fact they intended to continue with their bondage fun, that they didn’t want it to stop, that they intended to continue with the website, that she viewed it as her business, her way to bring an income into the house. It was my mom that told me she’d seen the look in my eyes when I saw her bound to the chair, that she’d seen the look in my eyes only the night before, the night before when I saw the actress bound and gagged on the tele. It was my mom that told me it was the same look she saw in my dads eyes whenever he had her helpless, when they’d played their games before the website ever came along, before they got married, before I came along, that she still sees in my dads eyes now. It was my mom that told me how it started, started for her, how it started in her childhood, how it started with her sister, my auntie Elizabeth. It was my mom who told me they would play silly games, that they would challenge each other, that they always enjoyed it, that they still do. It was my mom that admitted auntie Elizabeth still comes over, that many a time when I see her she’s been bound, been gagged, been photographed by my dad, had the images posted on the website. It was my mom that shocked me once more, shocked me by saying how auntie Elizabeth was involved, that she joined in, that dad even tied her. It was my mom that told me, how one day she was sure I’d want to tie a girl for myself, that she’d seen how I look at Emma, look at her when she comes over with her mom, Jackie. It was my mom that seemed to look into my mind and reach out for the truth, the truth behind how I felt, how much a wanted to bind and gag Emma, how much I fancied her. It was my mom that had the crystal ball, the crystal ball that saw into the future, that saw the fact I would indeed end up dating Emma.
In time the conversation drew to an end, soon enough it was over to me, was upto me to speak, to say how I felt, to admit how I felt. At first I thought it would be hard, would me impossible for me to be open and honest, would be me that failed to find the words, would be me that hid my emotions. But thankfully, in one way or another that wasn’t the case, it wasn’t as hard as I thought, wasn’t as nerve wracking as I expected. Yet, my mouth was dry, my heart pounded, in fact it had never stopped, my pulse raced, in fact that hadn’t stopped either. A glass of water took care of the dry mouth, but did nothing for my heart rate, did nothing for my pulse rate, yet finally I found my voice, finally I managed to engage my brain, finally I found the connection between them both. Slowly, at first, I began to speak, began to speak openly about how it felt to stumble in on my parents bondage game, stumble in on my parents secret, on how it felt to discover it was in fact my parents little business. Slowly, my words barely audible, I admitted not only to my mom, not only to my dad, but to myself, just how much I’d liked seeing my mom looking so helpless, how much I’d liked seeing her playing the role of a helpless damsel, like those in the movies and on TV. Slowly, with my words barely audible I admitted, how I liked the idea of seeing my auntie Elizabeth all tied up with my mom, how I liked the idea of seeing their friend Jackie all tied up with my mom, and most of all how I’d like to have Emma all tied up as well.
Yet, even as I admitted my feelings, as I admitted not only to my parents, but to myself how I felt, it seemed such an odd conversation to be having. It felt so weird to be telling them how I liked looking at my mom when she was bound and gagged, it felt so wrong to be so open, and yet it felt oh so right, it felt like a huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders, it felt like some, if not all the confusion had begun to clear. I told them, after a short pause, a pause instigated when they acknowledged my admittance, when they both nodded their understanding, when they both accepted how hard it was for me to admit my feelings, when they both admitted how weird a conversation it was, when they admitted what a weird feeling it must be to say what I did, that I didn’t want them to stop. I told them how clear it was they enjoyed what they did, I told my mom how good she looked, how beautiful she was, I told her how clear it was that it made her happy, how clear it was that she enjoyed being the damsel in distress, how clear it was that she liked posing for the camera, how clear it was that she liked playing the part. I told my dad how clear it was he enjoyed seeing my mom like that, told him how clear it was that he liked binding and gagging my mom, told him how clear it was he enjoyed photographing and videoing her like that. I told them both how it would be wrong of me to stop that, I told them I’m no longer a little boy, I told them it was clear they liked sharing the images and videos, I told them that it was clear how popular my mom was, I told them it was clear how much they made doing such things.
I asked them to promise they’d no longer hide what they did, asked them to be honest with me in the future about what they did, I asked them if they’d been serious, serious about me being involved, I asked them in what way could I be involved, I asked them if they’d teach me how to bind my mom, asked them if they teach me how to gag my mom. I continued by asking if they’d teach me how to take the photographs, I asked them if they’d teach me how to take the videos, I asked them if they’d teach me how to do the editing of the photographs, of the videos. I asked them if they’d let me become a part of what they do, I asked them if that was even possible, I asked them if that was even acceptable, asked them if there’d be any limits set, asked if there was certain outfits I couldn’t see my mom wearing, asked if there was certain ties I couldn’t be involved in. I waited for their response, waited for their reply, waited with baited breath, waited to be sent to my room for suggesting such a thing.
I was relieved when that didn’t happen, I was relieved when they replied, when the acknowledged my statement, acknowledged how hard it must have been to say, acknowledged how grown up I’d acted, acknowledged how proud they were of me. I was relieved when they answered my questions. I was relieved when my mom thanked me for saying how beautiful she looked, I smiled at how she blushed while doing so. I was relieved when my mom told me that binding her, gagging her would be allowed, that I could learn how to do it, with my dads help. I was relieved when my mom told me it would be ok to do some of the photography, would be ok to do some of the videoing. I was relieved when my dad told me I could be involved in the editing, could be involved in deciding what images, what scenes made their way onto the website. I wasn’t surprised when told there would be limits, I wasn’t surprised when I was told some outfits would be out of bounds, that for decency and privacy certain sets would be private even from me. Wasn’t surprised when they told me some bindings would be out of bounds, would be unacceptable between me and my mom, between me and my auntie Elizabeth, if she even agreed to me being involved, would be unacceptable between me and any of the other women that help out with the site, if they even agreed to me being involved. They told me if I waited till Saturday, if I was patient and continued to show my maturity, then it could begin, begin for real.
So all I could do was wait, wait for the weekend, wait to find out what would happen, how it would begin, how I would get to bind and gag my mom, and sadly you’ll have to wait, wait for the next part of my memoirs to hear what happened............