Agent 38 | Chapter 5
Posted: Thu Jan 03, 2019 8:10 pm
Chapter Five: “Escapable"
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Okay, let’s pause right here for a second.
Yup, this is older me again, in case you were wondering. I don’t mean to keep holding you in suspense, but I figured it was time for an update from present day me.
Yes, I’m still very much tied up in this god forsaken basement... store room... dungeon... Whatever this is.
No, I still haven’t been interrogated, or whatever these Italian mobster assholes have in store for me.
And no, I haven’t figured out a way to get out of my current bondage situation.
So not much has changed in that regard.
But something else has changed for me, you just might not notice it right off the bat.
All these years I thought I was a hardened soldier. An agent without fear. But, as it turns out, I was just lying to myself. That scared teenager that found herself tied up at the mercy of a burglar in her own basement has been a part of me this whole time. Even after all I’ve been through over the years, I still couldn’t shake the paralyzing fear that I felt that day, all those years ago.
And the thing is, today that schoolgirl in the basement taught me something. Because she was terrified, yes, but she also didn’t give up, no matter how dark things got. She showed me that I can be afraid and still complete my mission. She proved that there’s always a way out...
...That nothing is inescapable.
So, whether it’s terrible siblings, burglars, mobsters, rope, chains, duct tape, or thumb cuffs, I will never stop fighting.
So, not to that I want to bore you with more of my teenage misadventures, but I think we need to see this flashback through to the end. We just might learn something valuable from it.
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I stayed silent.
I didn’t make a move.
I listened intently as the soft footsteps eventually faded away. I stayed calm and motionless for what seemed like forever and took slow, measured breaths through my gag.
Yes, the ropes that surrounding my stomach, chest and throat did make it a bit hard to breath. And the way the man had bound my legs and arms made all my extremities ache, and I could already feel them going numb from the lack of circulation.
But I didn’t care. I blocked out the pain, the worry, and the fear that threatened to creep back into my mind. I had a job to do, a “mission†I told myself, and nothing was going to stop me from completing it.
I waited in silence, and stiffness, for an incredibly long time. So long, I swore it had to be daylight outside. If this were a normal day, I would probably still be in bed in my favorite pink pajamas without a care in the world. But this wasn’t just any ordinary day. Not only was I groggy from not sleeping, I was still wearing my school uniform from yesterday! I never even got a chance to change out of my of my white, button up shirt, blue sweater and my plaid mini skirt. The robber had done me the favor of removing my white knee high socks(after I’d gotten rid of my shoes myself), but now I wished I still had them on. The soles of my feet burned with pain after having to support my wait for several hours without a break.
I kept waiting. It was excruciating, but I couldn’t take any chances. I had to be sure that burglar was long gone before I began my work. If he caught me mid-escape(again), he might tie me up even tighter... or worse.
After waiting a while longer, I finally decided it was time.
Slowly but surely, I began moving my hands and grabbed at an object stuck up behind my wrists and out of view. I carefully pulled the object down with my fingers and into my palm, revealing it to be... a screwdriver!
And not just any screwdriver, the one that once belonged to the robber. The tool that mean man had used to threaten my life.
The idiot was so busy tying me up so he could steal from me and my family, he failed to realize;
I stole something from him.
The masked man had sloppily stuffed the screwdriver into his pants just as he began tying me up. He then made the mistake of getting close to me in the middle of his rope work, putting the screwdriver’s handle within reach of my bound hands. I quickly snatched the tool from him and hid it under my hands while he was tying up my elbows. I was paranoid for a while that he would notice it was missing and start looking for it, but that never happened. Thankfully the thief never had another reason to threaten me with it. He had left the basement, completely oblivious to what I had done.
And now I had my work cut out from me.
A screwdriver certainly wasn’t the most ideal thing to use while escaping rope, it was more blunt than anything. But it was a flat head, which meant it had thin, sharp tip. It could get into places and work through knots my fingers would never reach. Also, it was pretty rough and rusty, which meant simply rubbing it against the rope would cause my bindings to fray and split. With a lot of effort, I might even be able to cut through some of the rope with it.
This new challenge had actually got me excited. I hadn’t felt this way since... well, since my brother first started tying me up all those hours ago. Surely my excitement wasn’t misplaced this time.
I worked quickly and carefully, knowing that if I happened to drop the screwdriver I would be losing my only hope for escape.
Even with my vision impaired due to the blindfold, I didn’t slow down. I jammed the sharp end of the screwdriver into the knot between my wrists and fiddled around for a while. Before long, I actually felt it loosen. And then... my hands were free!
For the first time since since my devious brother had tied them together with clothesline yesterday, I was now able to move my hands freely and separately. With my elbows still securely bound together, on top of the numbness and stiffness that had set in, I only had a limited range of motion. Still, it was a liberating feeling. But I knew my work was far from over.
After allowing the feeling to come back to my hands, I began to pick at some of the knots around my torso. I was able to untie several of the ropes around my stomach and chest, relieving more pressure. I still had to be very careful considering the rope around my throat still threatened to choke me. If I was going to make any real headway, I had to get that off. But my tied elbows prevented me from lifting my hands any higher than my chest. My next task was to free my arms.
I wiggled and slid my arms up and down trying to slip out of the rope. With my wrists unbound it gave me more leverage, but it still wasn’t enough. The clothesline my brother had bound them with was already tight, and the the robber had only made it tighter. There was no easy way out of this.
I used the screwdriver to try and pry at the anchor point between by elbows, but it was no use. It was impossible to reach my elbows with my hands. I stopped struggling for a moment and placed my hands on the cold pole that had been digging into my back since yesterday afternoon. I blindly ran my fingers across the metal bar and noticed that it wasn’t as smooth as I’d originally thought. It was actually quite rough, and rubbing my hand across it the wrong way just might scrape it or break the skin.
Or even cut through some stubborn clothesline.
Carefully, without putting too much pressure on my neck rope, I began moving my arms up and down along the pole. The knot between my elbows was naturally pressed against the pole, having been anchored their by my second captor. I moved my elbows in short bursts, pressing the rope as hard as I could into the pole. Pretty soon I could tell that significant friction was being applied to the rope because it slowly became warm due to the rubbing. The harder and longer I rubbed, the more heat I could feel. For a moment I became concerned that I might actually make the rope catch fire, and while it would certainly help me escape, I likely would also catch fire, making my already awkward situation that much more uncomfortable.
I took my time and used frequent breaks to quell the heat and conserve my energy. As I worked, I could feel the clothesline loosening. Suddenly, I felt a couple of the strands snap and break free. The rest of the clothesline’s became much more loose, and to my amazement, I simply lifted my arms up and slide them out of the bindings.
Now free of all the rope, I flailed my arms Wildly in celebration of my accomplishment. Unfortunately I had little feeling or energy left in either of them, and they both slumped to my sides. It took several minutes before I could build up the strength to bring them up to my neck. I slowly worked at the rope securing my neck to the pole, and soon it too was untied. I then grabbed at my tape gag and blindfold, sloppily ripping them both off my face. I grabbed the tape almost too quickly and the searing pain of the adhesive ripping off my skin caused my to yelp. I spent several moments unwinding the tape from around my head and having to pick the sticky tape out of my bright red hair. I pulled the sopping wet handkerchief from my mouth and could now properly scream curses at my horrible sibling for putting me in this situation in the first place.
After finally regaining all my senses and my voice with the loss of my blindfold and gag, I then focused on untying the web of rope surrounding my torso. The thief had done an impressive job of harnessing my body to the pole. What took him minutes to tie took me three times as long to untie. I could have been frustrated at the slow pace of my escape, but I wasn’t. Simply being able to use my hands like a normal person to untie myself was exhilarating. Finally, I yanked the last length of black rope away from my body and it fell to the floor.
Next, I bent over and began untying the ropes around my thighs and knees. Undoing these simple knots were a breeze compared to what I’d been doing. But hanging my head almost completely upside down during all this made me dizzy and I had to stop and take breaks often.
Pretty soon, the only part of me tied to the pole were my ankles. I had to be extra careful at this point because loosing my balance and falling at this point meant a very painful faceplant into the floor without the mobility of my feet. I focused my efforts on the knot securing my ankles to the pole and within minutes I was able to move my bare feet away from the pole. I sat down on the floor and quickly untied my ankles, and had to take a moment to pick at the knotted string that bound my big toes together. But finally, at long last, I was completely free.
My body still ached all over. I had deep, red rope marks covering my body. My throat was dry and sore from the handkerchief that had absorbed every drop of saliva in my mouth. I struggled to stand as my legs felt like jelly. I stumbled my way towards the staircase, making no effort to pick up my dirty shoes and socks that had been strewn across the floor. I made my way upstairs, opened the door and squinted my eyes at the sight of bright sunshine streaming through the windows of my house. The clock on the wall confirmed it was after 9:00am in the morning. It dawned on me that I had just spent more than twelve hours bound and gagged as a prisoner in my own home.
But I had survived, and escaped, all on my own.
A million thoughts ran through my mind. I wanted to find my brother so I could yell at him for what he’d done. I wanted to make sure the house was secure and that I was safe from any more burglaries. I wanted to call my parents and tell them everything that happened. I needed to call the police and report what had been done to me and my home.
But I just couldn’t. After spending so many hours tied up, and many more escaping, I had absolutely no energy. I stumbled into my bedroom and flopped down on my twin bed, deliriously telling myself that I needed a short nap before assessing the situation. But sleep almost instantly overtook me. I was unconscious as soon as I laid down.
Suddenly I startled awake. Forgetting where I was or what had happened, I half expected to still be tied up. But no, I was in my own bed, still wearing my dirty school clothes from the previous day. I quickly sat up in bed upon hearing the muffled sound of voices coming from another part of the house. At first I was frightened. My last two human interactions had resulted in me being tied up beyond belief. But I remained fearless and crept towards the the door to my room. Opening it, I could hear several voices, one being the familiar tone of my older brother. I then heard the crackle of a radio and the jingling of handcuffs on a belt. The police were here.
It was now the evening, about 4:00pm. I had been so exhausted I’d slept almost the entire day. Apparently my brother had come home to find the house ransacked from the break in, and me... not tied up. I knew what he’d done. He had gone out partying all night with his friends, and decided to stay out all day Saturday too. That dumb “cops and robbers†game was just a ploy to get me out of his hair for a while, and probably payback for annoying him.
And now my hate for him was even stronger. I wanted to storm out of my room and scream at the top of my lungs at my brother. I wanted to tell the Cops everything. Maybe if they heard my story, they might even arrest my brother. A night or two in jail wasn’t even close to the amount of punishment he deserved.
As I placed my hand on the door handle, ready to yank it wide open, I stopped myself.
Could I really tell the Police the whole story?
Despite all the terrible things that had happened to me, both by my brother and that silent burglar, nothing could change the fact that I was the one that instigated all of this in the first place. I had become my brother’s willing captive just to get a thrill. Sure, my brother should have untied me like he was supposed to, but I let him tie me up in the first place.
Could I really tell the police that I had actually wanted to be tied up? They would think I was some weirdo.
What if my parents found out? What if my friends heard about it? What would they say?
The whole harrowing situation made me embarrassed. Ashamed. Humiliated.
As much as I wanted my brother and the burglar to pay for what they’d done, the shame of my predicament left me wanting to hide what had really happened.
Surely, the Cops wanted to question me about what happened. For a moment I wondered why they hadn’t come to question me already, but at the same time I realized they probably weren’t able to wake me up earlier.
I looked down at my arms and legs and noticed they still had obvious red marks all over them from the rope. That would surely draw questions that I didn’t want to answer.
I quickly stripped off my shirt, vest and skirt, dashed to my closet, and began rummaging through my clothes. After glancing in a mirror I noticed I even had rope marks on my neck, so I put on a pink turtleneck sweater to cover everything below my chin. I then put on a pair of black tights that covered my legs entirely. I then slipped on pair of mismatched socks, a light blue one and a bright green one.
As soon as I was dressed, as if on cue, one of the police officers knocked on my door, politely asking me to step outside my room. I went with him into the living room where my brother stood with two other officers. He gazed at me in amazement, obviously still shocked that not only had I escaped, but hadn’t been harmed by the burglar. He smiled, seemingly happy to see me, and maybe even partially regretting what he’d done to me. He glared at me, but I intentionally avoided making eye contact. I couldn’t verbally berate him right now, but I could give him the coldest shoulder possible.
When the officer began asking me questions my brother became visibly uncomfortable. Of course, he hadn’t told the truth to the Cops, and he was terrified that I would. But knowing that the facts would end up hurting both of us, I began to lie.
It was then that I realized what a great liar I was for the first time. I told an elaborate story, explaining that I’d had stayed up late playing videos games Friday night, that I was really tired and had simply slept through the burglary.
To my surprise, the Cops bought the story, even with my brother standing in the background with his jaw on the floor.
And that was the end of it. Once the Police left I locked myself in my room for the rest of the day. I had so many things I wanted to say to my brother, but I could never put my frustration into the proper words. I resigned to never speaking to him ever again, and I actually kept that promise... for a while.
The next day my parents came home. I said nothing more to them than I had to about the incident, and I desperately tried to forget it.
I was forced to wear long sleeve shirts and tights for a week or two until the rope marks went away. But even after they were gone, I knew the whole situation had left a permanent mark on my soul. I would never be the same again, and it would effect my entire life’s journey forever.
The rift between me and my brother would only grow wider afterward, and, in turn, my entire family suffered for it.
Eventually I would come to forgive him, but by then it was far too late. I was on a different path, perhaps a better one.
After that day I vowed to never be vulnerable again. To never give up. To always fight back.
To always escape.
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Okay, let’s pause right here for a second.
Yup, this is older me again, in case you were wondering. I don’t mean to keep holding you in suspense, but I figured it was time for an update from present day me.
Yes, I’m still very much tied up in this god forsaken basement... store room... dungeon... Whatever this is.
No, I still haven’t been interrogated, or whatever these Italian mobster assholes have in store for me.
And no, I haven’t figured out a way to get out of my current bondage situation.
So not much has changed in that regard.
But something else has changed for me, you just might not notice it right off the bat.
All these years I thought I was a hardened soldier. An agent without fear. But, as it turns out, I was just lying to myself. That scared teenager that found herself tied up at the mercy of a burglar in her own basement has been a part of me this whole time. Even after all I’ve been through over the years, I still couldn’t shake the paralyzing fear that I felt that day, all those years ago.
And the thing is, today that schoolgirl in the basement taught me something. Because she was terrified, yes, but she also didn’t give up, no matter how dark things got. She showed me that I can be afraid and still complete my mission. She proved that there’s always a way out...
...That nothing is inescapable.
So, whether it’s terrible siblings, burglars, mobsters, rope, chains, duct tape, or thumb cuffs, I will never stop fighting.
So, not to that I want to bore you with more of my teenage misadventures, but I think we need to see this flashback through to the end. We just might learn something valuable from it.
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I stayed silent.
I didn’t make a move.
I listened intently as the soft footsteps eventually faded away. I stayed calm and motionless for what seemed like forever and took slow, measured breaths through my gag.
Yes, the ropes that surrounding my stomach, chest and throat did make it a bit hard to breath. And the way the man had bound my legs and arms made all my extremities ache, and I could already feel them going numb from the lack of circulation.
But I didn’t care. I blocked out the pain, the worry, and the fear that threatened to creep back into my mind. I had a job to do, a “mission†I told myself, and nothing was going to stop me from completing it.
I waited in silence, and stiffness, for an incredibly long time. So long, I swore it had to be daylight outside. If this were a normal day, I would probably still be in bed in my favorite pink pajamas without a care in the world. But this wasn’t just any ordinary day. Not only was I groggy from not sleeping, I was still wearing my school uniform from yesterday! I never even got a chance to change out of my of my white, button up shirt, blue sweater and my plaid mini skirt. The robber had done me the favor of removing my white knee high socks(after I’d gotten rid of my shoes myself), but now I wished I still had them on. The soles of my feet burned with pain after having to support my wait for several hours without a break.
I kept waiting. It was excruciating, but I couldn’t take any chances. I had to be sure that burglar was long gone before I began my work. If he caught me mid-escape(again), he might tie me up even tighter... or worse.
After waiting a while longer, I finally decided it was time.
Slowly but surely, I began moving my hands and grabbed at an object stuck up behind my wrists and out of view. I carefully pulled the object down with my fingers and into my palm, revealing it to be... a screwdriver!
And not just any screwdriver, the one that once belonged to the robber. The tool that mean man had used to threaten my life.
The idiot was so busy tying me up so he could steal from me and my family, he failed to realize;
I stole something from him.
The masked man had sloppily stuffed the screwdriver into his pants just as he began tying me up. He then made the mistake of getting close to me in the middle of his rope work, putting the screwdriver’s handle within reach of my bound hands. I quickly snatched the tool from him and hid it under my hands while he was tying up my elbows. I was paranoid for a while that he would notice it was missing and start looking for it, but that never happened. Thankfully the thief never had another reason to threaten me with it. He had left the basement, completely oblivious to what I had done.
And now I had my work cut out from me.
A screwdriver certainly wasn’t the most ideal thing to use while escaping rope, it was more blunt than anything. But it was a flat head, which meant it had thin, sharp tip. It could get into places and work through knots my fingers would never reach. Also, it was pretty rough and rusty, which meant simply rubbing it against the rope would cause my bindings to fray and split. With a lot of effort, I might even be able to cut through some of the rope with it.
This new challenge had actually got me excited. I hadn’t felt this way since... well, since my brother first started tying me up all those hours ago. Surely my excitement wasn’t misplaced this time.
I worked quickly and carefully, knowing that if I happened to drop the screwdriver I would be losing my only hope for escape.
Even with my vision impaired due to the blindfold, I didn’t slow down. I jammed the sharp end of the screwdriver into the knot between my wrists and fiddled around for a while. Before long, I actually felt it loosen. And then... my hands were free!
For the first time since since my devious brother had tied them together with clothesline yesterday, I was now able to move my hands freely and separately. With my elbows still securely bound together, on top of the numbness and stiffness that had set in, I only had a limited range of motion. Still, it was a liberating feeling. But I knew my work was far from over.
After allowing the feeling to come back to my hands, I began to pick at some of the knots around my torso. I was able to untie several of the ropes around my stomach and chest, relieving more pressure. I still had to be very careful considering the rope around my throat still threatened to choke me. If I was going to make any real headway, I had to get that off. But my tied elbows prevented me from lifting my hands any higher than my chest. My next task was to free my arms.
I wiggled and slid my arms up and down trying to slip out of the rope. With my wrists unbound it gave me more leverage, but it still wasn’t enough. The clothesline my brother had bound them with was already tight, and the the robber had only made it tighter. There was no easy way out of this.
I used the screwdriver to try and pry at the anchor point between by elbows, but it was no use. It was impossible to reach my elbows with my hands. I stopped struggling for a moment and placed my hands on the cold pole that had been digging into my back since yesterday afternoon. I blindly ran my fingers across the metal bar and noticed that it wasn’t as smooth as I’d originally thought. It was actually quite rough, and rubbing my hand across it the wrong way just might scrape it or break the skin.
Or even cut through some stubborn clothesline.
Carefully, without putting too much pressure on my neck rope, I began moving my arms up and down along the pole. The knot between my elbows was naturally pressed against the pole, having been anchored their by my second captor. I moved my elbows in short bursts, pressing the rope as hard as I could into the pole. Pretty soon I could tell that significant friction was being applied to the rope because it slowly became warm due to the rubbing. The harder and longer I rubbed, the more heat I could feel. For a moment I became concerned that I might actually make the rope catch fire, and while it would certainly help me escape, I likely would also catch fire, making my already awkward situation that much more uncomfortable.
I took my time and used frequent breaks to quell the heat and conserve my energy. As I worked, I could feel the clothesline loosening. Suddenly, I felt a couple of the strands snap and break free. The rest of the clothesline’s became much more loose, and to my amazement, I simply lifted my arms up and slide them out of the bindings.
Now free of all the rope, I flailed my arms Wildly in celebration of my accomplishment. Unfortunately I had little feeling or energy left in either of them, and they both slumped to my sides. It took several minutes before I could build up the strength to bring them up to my neck. I slowly worked at the rope securing my neck to the pole, and soon it too was untied. I then grabbed at my tape gag and blindfold, sloppily ripping them both off my face. I grabbed the tape almost too quickly and the searing pain of the adhesive ripping off my skin caused my to yelp. I spent several moments unwinding the tape from around my head and having to pick the sticky tape out of my bright red hair. I pulled the sopping wet handkerchief from my mouth and could now properly scream curses at my horrible sibling for putting me in this situation in the first place.
After finally regaining all my senses and my voice with the loss of my blindfold and gag, I then focused on untying the web of rope surrounding my torso. The thief had done an impressive job of harnessing my body to the pole. What took him minutes to tie took me three times as long to untie. I could have been frustrated at the slow pace of my escape, but I wasn’t. Simply being able to use my hands like a normal person to untie myself was exhilarating. Finally, I yanked the last length of black rope away from my body and it fell to the floor.
Next, I bent over and began untying the ropes around my thighs and knees. Undoing these simple knots were a breeze compared to what I’d been doing. But hanging my head almost completely upside down during all this made me dizzy and I had to stop and take breaks often.
Pretty soon, the only part of me tied to the pole were my ankles. I had to be extra careful at this point because loosing my balance and falling at this point meant a very painful faceplant into the floor without the mobility of my feet. I focused my efforts on the knot securing my ankles to the pole and within minutes I was able to move my bare feet away from the pole. I sat down on the floor and quickly untied my ankles, and had to take a moment to pick at the knotted string that bound my big toes together. But finally, at long last, I was completely free.
My body still ached all over. I had deep, red rope marks covering my body. My throat was dry and sore from the handkerchief that had absorbed every drop of saliva in my mouth. I struggled to stand as my legs felt like jelly. I stumbled my way towards the staircase, making no effort to pick up my dirty shoes and socks that had been strewn across the floor. I made my way upstairs, opened the door and squinted my eyes at the sight of bright sunshine streaming through the windows of my house. The clock on the wall confirmed it was after 9:00am in the morning. It dawned on me that I had just spent more than twelve hours bound and gagged as a prisoner in my own home.
But I had survived, and escaped, all on my own.
A million thoughts ran through my mind. I wanted to find my brother so I could yell at him for what he’d done. I wanted to make sure the house was secure and that I was safe from any more burglaries. I wanted to call my parents and tell them everything that happened. I needed to call the police and report what had been done to me and my home.
But I just couldn’t. After spending so many hours tied up, and many more escaping, I had absolutely no energy. I stumbled into my bedroom and flopped down on my twin bed, deliriously telling myself that I needed a short nap before assessing the situation. But sleep almost instantly overtook me. I was unconscious as soon as I laid down.
Suddenly I startled awake. Forgetting where I was or what had happened, I half expected to still be tied up. But no, I was in my own bed, still wearing my dirty school clothes from the previous day. I quickly sat up in bed upon hearing the muffled sound of voices coming from another part of the house. At first I was frightened. My last two human interactions had resulted in me being tied up beyond belief. But I remained fearless and crept towards the the door to my room. Opening it, I could hear several voices, one being the familiar tone of my older brother. I then heard the crackle of a radio and the jingling of handcuffs on a belt. The police were here.
It was now the evening, about 4:00pm. I had been so exhausted I’d slept almost the entire day. Apparently my brother had come home to find the house ransacked from the break in, and me... not tied up. I knew what he’d done. He had gone out partying all night with his friends, and decided to stay out all day Saturday too. That dumb “cops and robbers†game was just a ploy to get me out of his hair for a while, and probably payback for annoying him.
And now my hate for him was even stronger. I wanted to storm out of my room and scream at the top of my lungs at my brother. I wanted to tell the Cops everything. Maybe if they heard my story, they might even arrest my brother. A night or two in jail wasn’t even close to the amount of punishment he deserved.
As I placed my hand on the door handle, ready to yank it wide open, I stopped myself.
Could I really tell the Police the whole story?
Despite all the terrible things that had happened to me, both by my brother and that silent burglar, nothing could change the fact that I was the one that instigated all of this in the first place. I had become my brother’s willing captive just to get a thrill. Sure, my brother should have untied me like he was supposed to, but I let him tie me up in the first place.
Could I really tell the police that I had actually wanted to be tied up? They would think I was some weirdo.
What if my parents found out? What if my friends heard about it? What would they say?
The whole harrowing situation made me embarrassed. Ashamed. Humiliated.
As much as I wanted my brother and the burglar to pay for what they’d done, the shame of my predicament left me wanting to hide what had really happened.
Surely, the Cops wanted to question me about what happened. For a moment I wondered why they hadn’t come to question me already, but at the same time I realized they probably weren’t able to wake me up earlier.
I looked down at my arms and legs and noticed they still had obvious red marks all over them from the rope. That would surely draw questions that I didn’t want to answer.
I quickly stripped off my shirt, vest and skirt, dashed to my closet, and began rummaging through my clothes. After glancing in a mirror I noticed I even had rope marks on my neck, so I put on a pink turtleneck sweater to cover everything below my chin. I then put on a pair of black tights that covered my legs entirely. I then slipped on pair of mismatched socks, a light blue one and a bright green one.
As soon as I was dressed, as if on cue, one of the police officers knocked on my door, politely asking me to step outside my room. I went with him into the living room where my brother stood with two other officers. He gazed at me in amazement, obviously still shocked that not only had I escaped, but hadn’t been harmed by the burglar. He smiled, seemingly happy to see me, and maybe even partially regretting what he’d done to me. He glared at me, but I intentionally avoided making eye contact. I couldn’t verbally berate him right now, but I could give him the coldest shoulder possible.
When the officer began asking me questions my brother became visibly uncomfortable. Of course, he hadn’t told the truth to the Cops, and he was terrified that I would. But knowing that the facts would end up hurting both of us, I began to lie.
It was then that I realized what a great liar I was for the first time. I told an elaborate story, explaining that I’d had stayed up late playing videos games Friday night, that I was really tired and had simply slept through the burglary.
To my surprise, the Cops bought the story, even with my brother standing in the background with his jaw on the floor.
And that was the end of it. Once the Police left I locked myself in my room for the rest of the day. I had so many things I wanted to say to my brother, but I could never put my frustration into the proper words. I resigned to never speaking to him ever again, and I actually kept that promise... for a while.
The next day my parents came home. I said nothing more to them than I had to about the incident, and I desperately tried to forget it.
I was forced to wear long sleeve shirts and tights for a week or two until the rope marks went away. But even after they were gone, I knew the whole situation had left a permanent mark on my soul. I would never be the same again, and it would effect my entire life’s journey forever.
The rift between me and my brother would only grow wider afterward, and, in turn, my entire family suffered for it.
Eventually I would come to forgive him, but by then it was far too late. I was on a different path, perhaps a better one.
After that day I vowed to never be vulnerable again. To never give up. To always fight back.
To always escape.